“You don’t have to go to work today”
This is something Casey started saying to me in the morning before leaving for the office. She has been to my office before so knows where it is and what it looks like. I think she understands the concept of work and knows that’s where I go to do it. It feels good that she wants me to stay at home and play with her instead of going to work.
Sleep Experiment
This was a poor choice. Casey sometimes tries to come sleep in our bed at night. Usually we pick her up and deposit her back in her own bed. However, last night she kept saying that she wanted to sleep with us so we finally let her. At first she was too excited and couldn’t stay still or be quiet. After several threats from Krystal telling her that she would have to go back to her own room if she couldn’t be quiet, Casey laid down and was still. She fell asleep on my side of the bed, on top of all of the covers, and upside down with her toes pointing at my chest. I slept uncomfortably in my small corner of the bed for about another hour before getting up to move into the other bedroom. I also didn’t get a shower this morning because I didn’t want to risk waking her up at 5:00 AM. I hope this stays a one time thing. It probably won’t though.
Old Man Thoughts
The older I get, the more I realize that I am not special. At least that is how I’ve felt until recently. It is easy to be special at something when you are a kid or even at the small college I went to. The things that I was good at gave me self-confidence because I could do them better than most everyone I knew. In the real world though, there are a bunch of people that are good at the things I am good at so what used to make me unique now just makes me average or normal. Maybe I just had too big of an ego and thought too highly of myself when I was younger. I don’t know. All I know is that I used to feel special and then for a long time I did not. Until…
I had this thought while Casey was visiting my office when Krystal had a doctor’s appointment. Maybe Casey makes me special. A lot of my co-workers were happy to see a toddler exploring our office building. They followed me follow her around my office building. They said she was cute and wanted to talk to her. That made me feel special. I get to see her and talk to her everyday. Nobody else gets to do that. So maybe being Casey’s Dad is what makes me special now.
Proverbs 20:29 comes to mind. You are much wiser than I was at your age (or even a lot older). Very proud of the man, Father and husband you are.